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Artist: Coldplay | Song: See You Soon

It’s 10:39 p.m. and I’m sitting on the bed in my hotel room feeling a myriad of feelings that I thought were long gone. I feel like the world is my own. It is as though I stepped out of myself - the person I am when I am dragging myself out of bed each morning to walk into a job that means nothing to me, the feeling of confusion that seems to take hold of me when I wake up in the morning and I don’t know who I am, why I am in the place I’m in - and became who I really am. I am only beginning to understand.

I feel connected to everything around me.

Tonight, I walked alone on the streets of Boston in the rain. I let the rain soak through my shirt, seep into my skin, and I felt so unbelievably alive…

Faces from the past, the now, and the future ran through my mind and all I could do was smile, and walk.

I feel connected to the street, the sky, each person aside of me on the subway… most of all I feel connected to me.

I am in love with the world.

Goodnight.

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Artist: Travis | Song: Flowers In The Window

A photo and a song for today. The photo was taken from my kitchen window a few minutes ago and the song I heard this morning and was reminded of myself in recent days. I feel that my life is working itself out. It’s a slow process that grows frustrating but when I remind myself where I’m heading it’s okay.

But live life now. I keep reminding myself of that too.

The other day, I realized I’m in the love with the world. In love with it’s problems, its miracles, and its ability to change and evolve at the fingertips of our efforts as people.

I’m in Boston with Amnesty International this weekend. Working for change. Fulfillment, finally. Happiness. Movement. Growth.

I found this picture while searching through some old files last night. I took it while standing in the parking lot after a long, grueling night at work. I remember thinking that I wish the bag I had were bigger and full of my clothes, that my cats were packed up and sleeping on the backseat of my car, and that I would then be traveling where no one knew my name.

Fall is coming, I can sense it in the chilly air today. Give me inspiration please. I want to write. Something. Anything.

I’ve been MIA for awhile now. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m busy, which I am, or because I just don’t have anything to write about… at least not here. This summer started off so hectic but empty, lifeless and lonely, and now I am almost wishing for a day like I had in late June. No one to talk to, no where to be, no plans to be made or appointments to keep. I always want what I don’t have and when I have it I don’t want it. I guess the world is just that way… I’d like to learn contentment one of these days.

I’ve been longing to write for weeks, sit down and pound at the keys for hours, frenzied with inspiration but it comes out in spurts. Mental spits of scenes I see in my head or lines that catch me and I jot them down but nothing follows. I am keeping them in a folder that is prominently displayed on my desktop as if a blatant reminder of my lack of creativity and the death of my once lavish vocabulary.

School is coming, and fast. I might have bitten off more than I can chew. Four classes, mentorship, Amnesty International Student Coordinator, work, life…

If I disappear into the ether at least there’s a chance I could have something to write about when I get back.